Stuck in a MATRIX: craving control and feeling scared.

A while ago I was re-watching all 'Matrix' movies and it got me thinking really deep.

"Your thoughts are the blueprint of your life."

"You are the greatest gift to the world."

"You are the one."

"There's a difference between KNOWING the path and WALKING the path." 

These were original movie quotes, which made me realise it is not far from the truth. The real matrix you and I live in is scarcity, control, fear and competition, which has become the nature of human being.

'BUT HOW DID I GOT HERE', you may wonder...

You crave control because you feel scared - scared of unknown, scared of what might happen, scared of failure, afraid to standing out just in case you might be rejected by those who just don't see it or simply don't understand - you are scared of being alone. However, the truth is that you are never alone, you do not need anybody or anything to feel whole. You ARE whole - full, complete own individual with the wisdom and knowledge within that is yet to be discovered.

Q: What happens when I have so called "aha moment" or "self - awakening"?

You'll feel empowered, joyous, energised, triumphant - happy tears moment - complete as you are, grateful, generous and loved.

Your insecurities which you had, will begin to melt away and no longer have a meaning because you will fall in-love with them, more and more each day. You'll look at the world in a whole new light. You will feel warm, happy for no reason and you'll want to tell everyone about it. That's what what will happen.

Q: OKAY. But what's next?

Once you discovered it. It'll feel strange at times. You'll pace backwards and forwards whether that's real or not - which is TOTALLY NORMAL reaction because your whole life might feel unknown to you again. This is because all this time you grew up being told NOT to do certain things, NOT to be certain way because you are NOT enough, WEIRD, STRANGE or even THE BLACK SHEEP in the family.

It'll take time for YOU to readjust and time to rewrite your own beliefs and values. You'll have a more attuned self-awarness to how you act and do certain things. It'll fancinate you. You'll start questioning more and reflecting on what does it really mean to you and why?

Your circle of friends and people you surround yourself with WILL CHANGE, in fact you'll build higher standards. You'll grow inner strength and willpower to speak for yourself, what's IMPORTANT TO YOU and what YOU WANT. You'll notice how much of YOUR time and energy certain people consume. You'll become more PRIVATE about how you live because you'll notice that ONLY a few will understand you, OR be willing to understand. Setting strict boundaries with others and respecting yourself more than ever will become the norm. You'll feel LIBERATED to have so much POWER to live a life you want.

In fact, you will feel so liberated that at times you will feel like you have become a self-absorbed narcissist. However, this DOES NOT mean you'll become SELFISH LITTLE NARCISSIST. In fact, you'll become more open-minded and begin to see potential in others (even if they don't YET see it themselves). You'll want to help other people see that power within them. You'll be able to empathize more because you'll remember what it is used to be like to live in fear and doubt. You'll respect others too because you'll understand that their own behaviour is ONLY the projection of how they feel - the fear, irritation, discomfort, desperation, lack of control, pain or overwhelming sadness. You'll also learn how to let go easier, because you'll understand that you cannot save everybody or CHANGE anyone because it's THEIR own choice. You'll understand that everyone is learning and growing at their own pace and at their own time - AND therefore you cannot tell anyone or force someone into something that they are NOT ready for.

Eventually you will achieve a level of peace where you are okay being with yourself.

You'll understand that THE ONE and ONLY THING you can CONTROL is YOURSELF - how you spend your time, how you THINK, how you LIVE your own life, what you FEED your own BODY and how you LOVE. You will become the creator of your own life. You'll understand that thoughts are the blueprint of your own life. You'll know that energy is all around you and if YOU BELIEVE IT, you can do ANYTHING - in its own time and place, wherever you wish to be - RIGHT NOW.

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This is the journey which everyone might describe it differently. However, the ultimate escape from control and fear brings a sense of peace, love and joy that we all truly work towards to.

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SEE YOU in the real world!

Coaching Practitioner and creator or MSLC,

Giedre Skeiryte

"I don't have time for this sh*t." - TRINITY

"You've got yourself in here, you can get yourself out."               - NEO